Today is 3 years since I was raped. Three years since the POLICE did NOTHING. I still have days where I believe it was my fault. I said no but I didn't fight. I let it happen. I walked into his house. I still see him in my head, especially when sex is involved. More often than not people do not understand why this has affected me so much. There was technically no violence.
I said NO.
I want to curl up in a ball today and hide from the world. I don't want to leave the house, I just want to sleep the day away.
Atleast one good thing came of this. Even though I got crazy, lost myself, and slept with too many people. I got my beautiful healthy baby. If none of this had happened I have no doubt she would not be here.
So for that I am thankful.
I've been fighting a losing battle with food and depression for a long time now... Its time to change. I've got a baby I gotta look out for now and she needs me to be around and be healthy for her... Shes my inspiration and hopefully the reason I stay focused on this. :)
About Me
- katiegirl1025
- I'm Katie, I've seen a lot of other people blogging and its helping them get healthier both physically and mentally. So here goes :) Hope you like it.
I'm terribly sorry for the pain you find yourself reliving. I cant imagine what that must be like and I wish I had better words to help ease your pain. Hoping youre feeling better this week xoxo
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